I can’t believe it’s been 3 months since I last blogged.

I can’t believe the craziness that has gone on in the past three months.

Since my last post:

  • I started working day shift
  • I fell in love
  • I ended a toxic relationship
  • I came out
  • I started grad school
  • I chose to not run Boston this year

It’s safe to say I need a vacation and a lot of writing therapy.


Fall Bucket List

Fall is (unofficially) finally here! Don’t get me wrong, I love warm weather and sitting on the beach but there’s just something about the fall.

I always have really high hopes for the fall, so many exciting things happen and I want to try to complete them all!

So here’s a list of a few things I am going to do/see/accomplish in the next few months:

  1. Run the SmuttyNose Half Marathon October 2nd
  2. Celebrate my 25th birthday (next week!!!)
  3. Complete my Arbonne district manager qualification
  4. Watch my mom run the NYC Marathon
  5. Sleepy Hollow Experience at Old Sturbridge Village
  6. Apple Picking
  7. Have a Halloween party at my apartment
  8. Celebrate Patrick and Sammy’s Birthdays!
  9. Jack-O-Lantern Spectacular at Roger Williams Zoo
  10. Try crossfit

An Apology

I guess there’s no better way to do this than on my (slightly forgotten about) public blog…

I’m sorry. About a year ago, I took a job training for a gym I loved (and still have an enormous amount of respect for even though we have gone our separate ways) and with that I signed on to sell nutritional products through a well known company. When I did this, I had no knowledge of the company and no real intentions. So, with that little knowledge and no intentions, I set out to do what anybody would do: convince all my friends and family to try the products.

A lot of people said yes to me and gave it a shot (THANK YOU for supporting me). I’m not sure if its because I’m trustworthy or because I’m a good salesperson (probably just that y’all felt bad for me) but I actually saw a little bit of success. That little bit of success got the best of me and I continued to promote products I still knew nothing about. Eventually I reached a plateau because I was inexperienced and lacking support. I’m honestly so grateful that this happened.

If I knew then what I know now, I never would have signed up to sell these products. Not necessarily because they are bad products (however, I don’t think ANYBODY needs soy protein in their diet), but because (in my experience) the company did not and does not care about their downline. There has also recently been some legal action taken agains this company which says a lot about the company’s practice as a whole. This month I decided to not renew my membership with this company and it is definitely for the better.

I still want to help people live healthier and happier lives; and I hope that my friends and family (and internet strangers) maintain their trust in me. I have spent months and months researching nutrition and exercise to make myself a better health care/fitness professional. I am lucky to have now found safe products that I believe in and I can’t wait to share them as I learn more!


Losing Your Motivation

If you had told me a year ago that I would be where I am now, I probably wouldn’t have believed you. A year ago I was working a job I loved (although commuting almost 100 miles a day), training at a gym that I loved and I looked and felt better than ever.

I’m finally starting to realize what a hot mess the last six+ months have been. My life got really out of control. My mental and physical health have both been through the wringer. I’ve spent a lot of time feeling bad for myself and being out of sync with the world around me.

I had an “aha” ┬ámoment where I realized that things weren’t just going to fall into place, I needed to put a little work in to get my sh*t together. I’ve started working an amazing job, ran a half marathon (and I’m training for a second), I moved out of my parents and into a tiny apartment with my boyfriend and our puppy, and I’ve started really caring about what I’m putting in to my body.

I’m not ashamed to admit I lost my motivation. I didn’t even realize I lost it until I got it back. So here I am, ready to take on the world.

Morning Person Takes on Noc Shift

I have always been one of those “up before the sun” people. “Sleeping in” historically has been staying in bed until 8am. So… When I accepted my new position of 36 hours/week on overnights, I knew I was up against a challenge. 

The first few weeks were weird. I felt like I was in a fog constantly… The week of Christmas coincided with my last week of orientation which was very stressful and many tears were shed.

Now that I am getting into a routine.. Thought I would share with you what is helping me stay healthy/happy/sane:

  1. Water water water- Staying hydrated is important for anyone, but it is helping me decrease that facial puffiness that comes from staying up all night 4 nights a week
  2. Making sleep a priority. It’s still hard for me to choose sleep over the gym but from a holistic standpoint sleep>exercise
  3. Exercise- I am still trying to figure out how to fit workouts in my schedule but what I have been doing is sleeping for 5-6 hours after work then going to the gym then hanging around the house before my next shift
  4. Eat regular meals. I have been eating “breakfast” on my way out of work, “lunch” when I wake up, and dinner before I go to work. I have shake packets and protein bars in my bag for if/when hunger strikes while I’m on shift

So far so good with the transition. I’m not sure I’m cut out to be an overnight nurse forever but I’ll make the best of it!

New Years Resolutions

Hi! Sorry I have been MIA lately. The holidays and my new job sucked me away from anything but that. I made the switch to overnights so I’ve been in a little bit of a fog. So what better time to make a “comeback” than with some new year resolutions.

Three years ago my resolution was to move more and eat less. It has changed to move more and eat better. I am still working on my relationship with food.. It’s a process that I am learning to embrace. I have come so far and I am proud of what I have accomplished and learned along the way, but I definitely still have work to do.

This year I resolve to: practice yoga more often, drink less Diet Coke, take my vitamins every day, be outside more, find a better balance between work, life, and fitness, be a better cat mom, and start the house buying process. 

Happy New Year! Here’s a New Year’s Day gym selfie:


Why is it so hard to eat healthy sometimes?

I love knowing how to nourish my body so that it performs the way I want it to (and it looks the way I want it to), but I also love indulging in all of the not-so-nutritious foods..

Take today for example:

Breakfast- Protein bar, herbal tea concentrate
Snack- Raspberries with mini dark chocolate chips
Lunch-Turkey tacos on lettuce wraps topped with plain greek yogurt
Snack- Unsalted rice cake organic peanut butter

I’m doing pretty well so far. But now that I’m about to leave work it is going to take a lot of willpower to not stop for chips and queso because I had a conversation about how good it is.

Yes, I know that it’s all about balance. But it should be more of an 80%-20% balance throughout the week instead of throughout the day..

What do you do to keep yourself from EATING ALL THE JUNK (especially at night)?